Oh 2017... Where do I even start in my recap of you? 2017 to me was supposed to be my year of Transformation. I was tired at how I was living my life and how my thought life was constantly pointing South. I knew my lifestyle was contrary to what God commands us Christians to live like, so I was determined to change. I needed to. 2016 was a dark year for me in many ways and I wanted to get back to where I was at before.
I was just thinking about you today while taking a walk during my lunch break at work. It was a nice, relaxing walk, especially as thoughts of you filled my mind. I was thinking about our future together and all that God was going to do in and through our lives together... *sigh* And then fear struck.
Now, I grew up being told sex before marriage is damaging; that it wasn’t God’s original design. I just had never really taken time to look it up for myself. I only took my parents’, teachers’, and pastor’s word for it. They were older than me, so they must know all! – right? But then I went to college and into the real world. Since then, I’ve heard countless points from people who are okay with having sex before marriage. As much as these questions and thought process appear to bring order in my life towards my future spouse, I’m not interested in living based off of human logic. I want to know what GOD says.